God you never cease to amaze me. The more I think that no one could love me, the more you show me just how much you love me through other people. I’m not sure what I am feeling but perhaps maybe just maybe for the first time in my life I am experiencing what true love feels like. Not a romantic love that world sees but the love that you have for us. A love with no strings or expectations, a love with no judgement or condemnation. A love that is overwhelming that there are no words to describe. A love that if given to much could actually hurt us but you know exactly how much we can handle and dole it out in just the right amount. Just enough to keep us wanting more but not so much that it shuts us down. A perfect love that’s what it is.
Last night I had the courage to speak to a dear friend and discuss some boundaries and I thought for sure this would be goodbye. It wasn’t and this person just exemplified to me your love in a way I hadn’t seen before. My courage to speak the truth deepened our relationship rather than destroying it. That is something I’ve never experienced before. I am not sure where you are going with my life but one thing I am sure of is I am following you and I can’t wait to see what you have in store for me.
This week you dropped $1500 in my lap just in time for me to have my dental work done. I had no idea how I was going to pay for it but you heard my need and provided at the right time. I am beginning to see your hand actively at work in my life. Each morning I get up wondering what you have in store for me. Where will my God lead me today? How will he use me to touch the lives of those around me? For the first time I really want to live not for me but for you. I understand now. Funny how I thought I understood before but looking back I realize just how little I understood. Now I wonder just how much I still don’t understand. I know though that you Lord will reveal everything in the right time.
Until next time I will rest in your peace,
Love,
Your beloved daughter