God,
I need you to love me.
I need to see it.
I know you say your there but I can’t see you
I can’t feel you
and I can’t hear you.
I’m tired!
I don’t need people telling me things I already know.
I need you to love me where I am, not where I should be.
I need to see you with these crappy eyes that don’t see well,
the ones you saw fit to create me with.
I need to hear you with my ears,
not the thoughts in my head that say….
I’ll never be good enough.
You said I didn’t have to be
so where are you?
You said you were there for me and that you would never leave me.
Child like faith….
so simple
Believe in what I cannot see or hear or feel.
So I won’t look for you
Won’t listen
Won’t feel.
I’ll just know
That you are here in my darkest hour.
You know exactly how I feel with out saying a word.
So I’m trusting you to love me the way I need to be loved even if don’t know what that is.
