I picked up my daughter from school and when she got in the car I informed her that we had to go pick up Star (our cat) from the vet. She instantly asked why? and I cringed trying to decide how honest I should be.
I went with complete honesty hoping that God would give me the grace and wisdom to guide my 10yr old daughter through more bad news.
I looked at her and told her that I had run over Star pulling into the garage that morning and he took off.
Her face quickly turned to a look of horror and I quickly told her that he was ok and we were going to pick him up.
As I pulled out of the school parking lot I heard her exclaim that February was a crappy month and that she couldn’t wait for March to get here.
I understood more than she knew because I had the same conversation with God early that morning. I had told God that I thought February was a cursed month for me. I was trying to understand how any good could possibly come from losing our beloved Star. I knew that I had completely run over him. I heard the howl and fully expected to have to clean up his body from under the car. So when he wasn’t there all I could think was that he wouldn’t make it far and would more than likely bleed out somewhere close by. I tried calling and searching for him not because I thought I could do anything but so I could tell him I was sorry and allow the kids to bury him. I left the house that morning heart broken trying to figure out how to tell the kids and what exactly to tell them. I knew that if I ever saw him again it would be a miracle so when I arrived home that afternoon to see him trying to make his way across the driveway to me I broke down crying. I scooped him up and went straight to the vet. I told them what happened and that I couldn’t afford to do a life saving surgery but if by some miracle he had a chance of surviving on his own then I would take him home. I just didn’t want him to suffer a long slow death so if he was seriously injured and slowly dying I wanted to put him down. I left the vet that afternoon still trying to figure out what to tell my children.
An hour later I received a call from the vet to inform me that Star had no internal bleeding and doesn’t appear to have any broken bones. He is very sore but he is getting around on his own so he should recover.
That’s when I heard God answer my question……..
I turned around and looked at my daughter and said
If all of those crappy things hadn’t happened this month we wouldn’t have had the opportunity to experience God’s miracles for ourselves. So maybe February is a month of miracles and we are blessed to have had the opportunity to experience them. Perhaps the greatest thing we can do now is share with others the things that God has done for us.
Her little face softened as she realized the truth of my words and then began talking about our miracles….
Her mom was alive! ( I had 2 car accident’s within 4 days… the second was very serious)
God sent people in our paths to help when we needed it the most.
Her pet baby bearded dragon was alive ( his eye exploded while sitting on her lap and was bleeding out his head)
I don’t know what your month has been like but I hope you can find encouragement and perhaps a new perspective if it has been a difficult one. Paul warns us of the trials that we will face and reminds us to work at staying faithful and trusting God to know what he’s doing even when we can’t see it. I’m not worried about next month or even how I’ll replace my cars because what matters most is what I believe about God.
I believe God is good and I hope you do too!